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Name: Jessika
Country: United States
State: North Carolina
Metro: Raleigh
Gender: Female
Interests: Clementine: Joel, I'm not a concept. Too many guys think I'm a concept or I complete them or I'm going to make them alive, but I'm just a fucked up girl who is looking for my own peace of mind. Don't assign me yours.
Joel: I remember that speech really well.
Clementine: I had you pegged, didn't I?
Joel: You had the whole human race pegged.
Clementine: Probably.
Joel: I still thought you were going to save me. Even after that.
(sounds about like me, but more about me;)
I like that movie! (Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind) I love photography, poetry, music, singing and living. Nothing I am all that great at. I like soccer, raquetball, tennis and running. (although my knee does not).
Expertise: Living, loving, working, going to class
Surfing is good!
Occupation: Student
Industry: Education/Research
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  mostawesomestjes
AIM:  lilmacjessi
Member Since:
8/18/2004
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| I feel like I gained weight today.... not like I really care, but just hte fact that all I did all day was sleep, watch TV and eat... oh lies! I took the trash out... okay that is nothing worth even writing... I have tomorrow, which will be the same, then a nice weekend with Kevin and Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday and Friday I will be doing something like I did today and going to mom one of those days to take my last bit of stuff home then Saturday I will be making sure my camp stuff is all packed up and Sunday morning I finally leave!! I am sooooo ready for the summer so I can feel like I am productive. At least then I will have kids to keep me busy and the days will start to go faster. I don't miss Target... I just miss being productive. Ah well.. only a week or so. yay! | | |
| I'm lonely again tonight. There is nothing to do with everyone gone and Kevin most importantly gone. All of my stuff is packed... otherwise I would play some game or something, but... Wii is only so much fun by yourself. I would read a book, but they are packed and I wasn't smart enough to keep at least one or two unpacked. I miss Kevin. When we did things it was like... dang we only do the same two or three things, but when it is gone you realize wow... I miss those two or three things. I could sleep, but then I would get up earlier and be bored during the day instead of the night... dunno. That last week and a half were all I have to do is move my stuff out on the that Saturday is going to blow... maybe I'll go to the beach or something with people... anyone? Well I just hope the next two and a half weeks will fly... I leave June 3!! It is enclosing quick and hopefully will feel fast too. Then I will have so much to do that I won't be focusing all the time on how much I am lost without Kev around. | | |
| It's not even the first night and I am already almost crying...  I dunno. I am going to see him on Friday and Saturday and we have done without each other for this long before... but maybe it is shocking for two reasons, 1. it's been a long time since we did do without each other and 2. it's a taste of what the summer will be. I will see him Friday and Saturday, but not again until our beach trip. So June 16. Then we will have a happy week together. Then we will not see each other again until August 13. Unless he comes and sees me one weekend. It makes me sad. But it will be good for both of us I think. but tonight is the first step in my summer. Let's see how the rest goes. | | |
| I hate me sometimes.... but I hate all the stress of this week more and wish I had a moment to sleep or scream or something of the sort, but I don't because someone is either feeling me up in my sleep or I have too much on my mind to be able to sleep... I hate finals.
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| Something always happens to take my mind away from finals the week of. It sucks... This time around my mother hates me and is an alcoholic... great... I called her earlier to tell her something then said I had to go to bed early because I needed to get up early and study for finals. Well she had to call me back to say I am bring this up and maybe I shouldn't say this, especially before finals, but I am disappointed that we are not good enough for you... what? That is crap... I said well I am disappointed that you are drinking again so we are both disappointed at something I suppose. then she said I am sorry that you are going up there instead of coming down here (meaning when I am out of this apartment for the three days before I go to work for the summer I will be going to Kevin's house maybe so I don't have to go to my house) and I said well it's not my fault that you gave my room to Jacob and the Kids' room to Kirsten (don't get me wrong I have no problem with it... until I am getting shit on for not wanting to sleep on the floor.). I told her that I am not going to sleep on the couch to make you feel wanted, if you need that to make you feel loved so be it, but you shouldn't... you should understand that there is no room ( aside to self: and I don't want to smell like smoke for a month afterwards or deal with you drunk.... ) Then she asked well where will you be staying up there... I said Kevin will be gone and Katie is gone forever so I can sleep in either of those beds.... and she said well I am sorry we are not as well to do as them.... yea... so that is my night... I love it! great stuff.... off to cry instead of study... stupid crap! | | |
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